The last few weeks, there have been some distractions that continue to invade my normal regiment of thinking. That's fine by me because we need those distractions. That's what I call them anyhow. You know those times that seem to come out of nowhere. Those times when we experience an incident that is inspirational or thought provoking on some profound level. Most people get excited because of these "moments". They happen fast and their delicate appearance vanishes without the proper excuse. The resonate with an echo, the only tangible evidence left to saturate my curiosity. These delicate gifts represent a quiet explosion, ignited through my own recognition of its presence. This realization captivates me by its abnormal occurrence and intrusive behavior.
My memory escapes me now as I try to remember the moment I was going to reflect on. I wanted the perfect setting to be created before trying to deliver my words with a respectable introduction. In doing so I was left with the sound of an echo. It probably had the structure of epic characteristics and the wisdom able to easily answer all the questions I have about life. In that moment, there was probably a relevance to my life and the challenges that I chose to participate in. I just can't reach far enough to have it hold again. The urge to chase after it, is evermore intense. There has got to be some way to try and make it happen again so I can share it with you. I'm broken. I'd do anything to just get it back.
Instead, through my failed attempt I have found a more precious moment. One that was so important to me I wanted to hold it safe forever but my own mind only held it tight enough for me to only be left without any recollection of its existence. I know it happened. I know it did.
I blame myself for not writing it down or telling someone about it. Losing moments, as I have come to learn, is not to be taken as a loss. You see, it takes the loss of a moment for the next one to come along. We will all reach for the moments that are now gone. It's what drives us. It creates energy and the strength to prepare for the next. They remind us of life and how it's wonderful orchestration of these moments create who we are, a beautiful composition.
Notes:
Oct 24, 2008: It is possible to have a moment.
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